Monday, July 09, 2007
haha. it's just after my spiritual BDAY and the beginning of my b'day. yay!!!
2 yrs in Christ, ups and downs, i have gone thru it all with Him. a roller coaster ride, or just a simple trip, perhaps a race or a marathon, it's one journey that i have been on for the past 2 yrs. camps with spiritual highs, moments of spiritual dryness, He never fails to be faithful, loving and totally great in my life. Still growing, still need lots of work, need Him to rule and reign in every area, want Him to be the greatest love of my life.
another yr, another new journey, i look forward to the next yr, trials and tribulations, i will be with Him.
hazel : D
& 11:53 PM
stuck in reverse ♥
Friday, July 06, 2007
not handed in, not complete, not entered. i am not the admin type of person, perhaps it was a mistake to take up that job. not the type to chase ppl for valuable things. articles, write ups, they cost only time, but the others, i can't bring myself to demand it. i know its impt, but i dun have the burden for it. sometimes, i'm just not that type of person, just don't push me.
the best way to get me to work efficiently is to give me time, like Ben Wai and Ms Goh : D i get work done and they get what they need. its just like this with me.
can't stand it, succeeding and failing and succeeding. its a up and down thing. no argument to say that i CAN'T do anything bout it, but maybe its cos i dun wan to. so i pray that God may give me a change of heart. sometimes, i dun wanna change, but i know it has to be done. may God convict me of what needs to be done.
so far KI got S (19.5/45) and chinese got B (69.0...) my 2 best results. maybe expecting that econs would be better, but lit, maths and hist sure DIE. haix, sometimes i get tired just thinking bout it.
i just wanna live life for God, surrounded by His presence. just to do all i can for Him, cos i know that it is definitely worth it. too many restrictions, challenges, i am feeling too tired. need to be refreshed. need to gain that conviction and that rush. sometimes i think that i am really insufficient as a member in a team, maybe its just that i don't like the way i am led. but no use whining bout it, cos if i think its not the best way that can bring the security of God to people, i have to be the one changing it.
i'm not saying that leading for a purpose is not a good way, but i think leading for the people is the best way. you need to do more than just inspire a vision and lead by example. you need to encourage the heart, and make sure that the person really feels it. we may know it, but we may not KNOW it. so, ya, guess i just wan some assurance? i dunno. haha.
maybe my calling is someplace else, i dunno, maybe i'm not motivated to do this. so just, ya, i don't work well under pressure if i feel that my leader going to disapprove of what i do. its just they way i am. and if i can't meet your standard, i sorta just give up. i can't do anything under pressure that i feel will lead to me getting rebuked. my working style, that's why i can't work under a boss.
convicted over and over again, of who God is and who He is in my life. He keeps me standing strong, even when i feel like falling. thanks a million, God! :DDDDDDD
hazel
& 11:00 PM
stuck in reverse ♥
Monday, July 02, 2007
its been 2 weeks, is anyone asking me, HOW"S THE TWO WEEKS CHALLENGE?
to tell you the truth, i think i failed. honestly. i think i failed totally. but who knows, maybe God has a different plan for me. ah, well.
doing PW now, yay! i think that we are on time for PW stuff, considering how lil' we did during the hols.
new vision new passions, too much stuff that is surrounding me. MCGs, I.F, copywritings, RC fund, MJ annual, .... AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
okay, i promise to PRAY, i MUST. isn't that what God said? : D
have to give up some, take up some. c'mon, i need to do more than just what i am doing now. KINGDOM-MINDED.
giveitupgiveitupgiveitupgiveitupgiveitup
giveitupgiveitupgiveitupgiveitupgiveitupgiveitup
giveitupgiveitupgiveitupgiveitup!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yup. i WILL.
exams are over. Gonna pass econs, chinese. failing hist, KI, literature and maths. Okay, so i may get some subpass, but i doubt so. ah well... results are next week.
dennis loh has a new haircut, and i think that its a great transformation. looks much better. haha. just had to comment on it : D
hoping, praying for a better 2nd semester,
hazel
MJ 15!!
& 7:01 PM
stuck in reverse ♥
