Sunday, January 28, 2007
how many time must i disappoint? hearing His call to me makes me cry every single time. i have lost count of how many times He has called out to me, and i thank God that my heart is not so hardened that i can't be touched by Him. make the right choice. sometimes, He makes it so specific that i have no doubt that He is talking about me. its just so overwhelming.
i really wanna change.
pls don't give up on me.
i love You.
thanks for loving me.
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& 11:16 PM
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savvy, cool. wow. today was a cool day and an even cooler night. WOW.
okay, had a great ESS and was really savvy that many came to know Jesus, can't wait for next ESS, we are hearing 1 bring 1 again. so COOL..
enjoyed wearing my new combination of clothes, though kept getting questioned by ppl why was i wearing liddat.. haha..
the night was cool, think it revealed to me my discontentment of being stagnant, was reluctant to go for grace's svc at first, but at the end i was totally awed by it, like the way i wanted to watch So You Think You Can Dance during church camp, but in the end camp was SO MUCH better.
went there and saw the POTENTIAL they had. WOW. they could grow to be like yhope, like the way we are now. they really HAVE it, and even in places where we lack, they have it. just need to brush up their skills, but they got a core team of 30 plus ppl and the Holy Spirit is just overflowing.. overwhelming. also found out the reason why God urgeed me to go there. was totally cleansing for my soul, and a great time of learning about in depth stuff in the realms of the spiritual. just to assure the ppl ard, i m not going to skip church or change. i totally love yhope, and am committed, its just that i really see the potential in grace's young adults svc. and there are some things that we can learn from them, but the leadership in my church is too high and maybe too far away? dunno. still love them lots.. gah, be discerning here. i m not insulting leaders...
maybe get my leaders to do an exchange program.. let the leaders pick up the vibrancy and unity in grace's svc and let the leader's in grace's church see the potential they have and what they can become. but if they say its not gd for the KOG, well, there's nth i can do. i may be awed by it, but it doesn't mean the leaders will.. so yeah. i dunno. should i? i mean, i dunno... will they see what i see, or will they say, "we are different." ? i dunno. see how la. talk to jasmine and hanyun first.
its been a great day. thanking God for such a brilliant day.
:)
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Saturday, January 20, 2007
why is it that these days, i keep reading boooks of the fallen and watching shows of it too. albeit it is fiction, but in the end, u end up feeling for the villan, the person who was so close to making that right choice but still made the wrong one at the very end. it cuts so deep that u dun even know where is it hurting. u only know that it
hurts.
i, lucifer. crazy book. gosh, what humour, what parody. not for the less discerning. making fun of God, though still respecting His authority.take it with a pinch of salt, laugh when luce, aka satan, bitches abt Him. honestly, it has to be taken lightly. true evil exists, we must know that. the expectation, when luce is so close to
home, & then torn away.
u already know the ending. lex luthor is clark kent's enemy. satan is always going to oppose God. but somehow, but watching 0509 (ref to prev post) and reading
i, lucifer, albeit fiction, makes u wan the bad guys to turn out good.
reading, watching, understanding.
it's a lesson unto itself.
wishing for good villans,
sw
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BAM BAM BAM BOOM! 0509. wat does it mean? season 5 episode 9 of smallville - lexmas.
KABOOM! the thing that can change the future, but in the end, turned out to be the thing that set the future in it's path. heartbreaking.
"And you know the secret to living happily ever after? Power. Money and power..."
" i wanna be senator, i want it ALL." -lex
gosh. i can't bear to watch. he knows that his future is dommed either way, at least to him, and he chooses the one he thinks is right. misguided indeed.
heartbreaking.
sw
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gosh, great guy. i love lex luthor, i enjoy michael. gosh, and realising that i like lex cos he's michael, instead of liking michael cos he's lex, is so weird!!!
honestly, lex in smallville is totally charismatic.. lex makes me like cars & wine. michael makes me wanna know more abt music, 80's soft hits specifically.. he's like lex in his genre. while lex is totally crazy (in my POV) about alexander the great, wars and battles, michael is totally devoted to 80's soft hits. wow.
its like so amazing. the same exact intensity is there. wow. i think i like intense guys.lol. =)
let's see. alan rickman. michael rosenbaum. yeah. i like tom felton, elijah wood, and a couple of others. but not as much as alan and michael. hmm. guessed i just found out who am i a fan of. so weird. haven been a fan of anything b4.
that's just interesting. lex luthor, severus snape. lol, ah well...
alan rickman, michael rosenbaum. if only i can stop my heart frm breaking every time i read HP or watch SV.
talking nonsense,
shiwei
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Wednesday, January 17, 2007
“I could have sworn I hit you.”
His savior turned back to look at the mangled guardrail before answering.
“You did.”
woohoo. if only. man, so cool!!
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Tuesday, January 16, 2007
There's an old saying in Kansas: "There's so much good in the worst of us, and so much bad in the best of us, that it hardly behooves any of us to talk about the rest of us."
*** didn't really approve of "if thou must love me, let it be for naught except love's sake only." "It's like that old Billy Joel song, ***** -- 'I love you just the way you are.' He's practically telling the woman she's stupid and no fun to be around. Why can't you love people for great reasons?"
"Maybe she's afraid the things you love in a person could change."
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Monday, January 15, 2007
tired tired and super tired.. insane day. went to work w/ 4 hrs of sleep then had french class till 930 pm. so FUN.
dance. french. woohoo.. if only i can learn both every day or something. this friday no dance, super sad man.. must not forget writing too.. will get up early tmr morn and start to write daily. if i wan to make it, i must be able to work for it..
i got a fast car.. miss reading classics..
LLCKHPDMSS.. ah well...
forget it, give it up.. if only..
dead tired,
sw
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Saturday, January 13, 2007
loving dancing more, at least much more than french, though its fun too..
too much free time now, but gonna start working tmr.. o's results coming out in a mth's time.
slowly but surely, time is passing by. feels weird, can't think how it would be like to be at sch right now, but, i'll adjust. haha.
tmr will be fun.
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Friday, January 12, 2007
changed blogskin.. was unsatisfied w/ the old one..
been looking at lots of harry potter these days.. esp the movies coming up.. seems like alan rickman is not confirmed as severus in the sixth movie.. hopefully he is, it wouldn't be in character for sev if it were anyone else acting.. but at least tom felton and daniel radcliffe are confirmed as harry and draco. it'll be fun. =)
dunno when is book 7 releasing.. hope its soon.. can't wait.
went to SRJC to crash.. grace got her dream combination, which is also incidentally mine. gah.. if only i went to jc, it would give me credibility if i wanted to take certain subjects.. haix..
manda's sick, hopefully she has recovered. cg is later, then dance is late at night. hope won't sleep too early or something. haix...
wanna go svc tmr. =) dun wanna miss it again. sian... crazy weekend upcoming...
salut!
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Wednesday, January 10, 2007
the calling - unstoppable.this is where it all began..
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Tuesday, January 09, 2007
AJL, alexander, LL, driving gloves, fencing, initials on a card.. mmm, yummy!
haha, u wouldn't wan to know...
crazy bout subtext and subtlety,
sw :D
& 11:59 PM
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Strength, speed, inhuman resilience. Check, check, and check. Apparently Clark was first in line when God was handing out all the really good freakish mutations.
lol.
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Monday, January 08, 2007
God, how could something that he wanted this bad, that felt this good, hurt so fucking much?beautiful image, WOW.. awe by the images words can create...
"I've seen you before, but I never really let myself look. Now, not only can I look but I can touch. And I can't believe how good you feel, soft and hard and... mine."the possessiveness in this line.. so overwhelming..
*** grinned like he'd, not just expected, but planned this conversation as well as the day.cool skill.. :D
***** could fight it, could deny it, could scream and rage and break ***'s heart to a thousand slivers, and it would always come back. He would pretend to want things, ask for advice, complain about inane problems, but it came back to the simple fact that ***** would come back. ***** was a compass, he could be anywhere in the world, and *** would always be north. Always be home base. Always the point of destination and inclination.wow at the type of guidance.
a few cool sentences tat i like...
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"I'm betting you can find a way to do this without crossing the lines your father did."
"You'll lose your money."
"I won't bet money," Clark said quietly. "
I'll bet my life."
the amazing faith that we all need to have in our friends. wow.
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Clark snorted, but refrained from comment.
"Do you think your dad knows, too?"Lex breathed easier. Tactics. He could handle tactics. "Not necessarily. Karloff seems to be playing his own game. In any case, I want you to stay the hell away from both of them. And avoid strangers."
"So if some maniac in a Porsche knocks me off a bridge at 60 miles an hour--""Let the asshole drown."
"Got it. Lex. Don't do anything that will get you killed, okay?"
"Oh, I embrace that philosophy whole-heartedly."lol, i love reading stories that make references to the original series.
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Sunday, January 07, 2007
been learning rumba and just started cha cha.. its fun, and honestly? its cool.. dunno why, but dancing cha cha gives me the confidence to dance rumba... looking forward to dancing and learning french and all these kind of things.. =)
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Thursday, January 04, 2007
The complaints were numerous and the two innovators were called upon repeatedly to explain and/or defend their work before ethics review panels, thus prompting Snape to utter his now famous words: "
Exactly what part of unconscionable escaped your feeble, collective understanding?"
lol, honestly humourous if read in the contaxt of the story, abt how the creation of Unconscionables came about (FYI: its
fiction!!) and how ppl questioned the use of it and what Snape said to refute all arguments. lol indeed.
loving the way words work,
shiwei
& 11:25 PM
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i miss mr kuek, mr yazeed, mrs yee, ji lao shi, and all the other tchers that i had last year. first day of sch and i'm not seeing any of them.. really miss the evn and the class and the teachers.. realising that i may nv get teachers a funny as
mr kuek and
mr yazeed, teachers who throughoutly know their subject as
mrs yee, teachers as caring as
ji lao shi.. i guess i'm realising that things will nv be the same.. its just so bizzare.. i may not like my sch, but i do love the tchers and class..
wonder how mrs yee is doing now, seeing that the 4IT of '06 is so different from the 4IT of '07...
its another step taken forward, another leap towards the future.
gosh i do love everything that has to do w/
4IT'o6..
miss all of u people...
dun think i'll ever forget how each and every person mould me into who i am today..
feeling nostalgic & missing the past,
shiwei
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Wednesday, January 03, 2007
History deemed us enemies
One born to know only pride and hatred,
Shouldering a burden born of legacy.
One born to know only pain and vengeance,
Trapped in a world of cruel responsibility.
Mere words on parchment cannot erase years of hatred
Of rejection.
Of fear.
I know this as sure as I know my love defies fate’s cruel hand.
I do not expect you to love me
I do not expect hate to wither and die simply because of pretty words
only now spoken.
I only ask for you to listen, for you to understand
that an eternity of hate died the day I first saw your smile
Saw it light your eyes
like a sliver of silver sunshine
in an eternally thunderous sky.
The day I first heard your laugh
A sweet, whispered symphony
after hearing only painful, cruel silence
The day I understood pain’s quicksilver scars
in every torturous word of malice
hurled in my direction.
Only then could I truly understand what it meant
To fall deeply in love with your bitter enemy
To watch hate shatter in a shower of splintered glass
Just to cut deep when love is destined never to be requited.
“My only love, sprung from my only hate”
No truer words ever spoken
For I love you ***** ******,
Enemy.
Rival.
Consequences be damned.
pretty poem. not by me. but the impact, WOW. the pictures, PRETTY.
love it.
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