Wednesday, March 28, 2007
reading through past posts and really seeing how my writing has changed from the past till now.
need to build up a portfolio to join a writer's seminar, but do i look the type who has one? looking for all my writings and trying to come up with a coherent portfolio and one that it whole. b'cos of various sch subjects, i am veering off from the career that i am interested in so this would be an extremely good chance for me to get back back on track especially since this is locally based and it would really give me a good feel of the local market. would be fun but i am really extremely nervous bout it. don't even know if i can get in b'cos of its strict critieria.
i can feel that He is calling me back based on the many chance programs that are upcoming. thanks for calling on me, doing so much to get my attention. :) i will seek guidance from You.
no one. sian i really have no pool of friends or social circle to tap on... read all the past moments that i have been insipired and now am motivated by my past experiences that have occurred again and again. i know that i can make it. breakthrough is ending soon adn i am still on the verge. just when i thought i had over come, it comes back to disrupt me, by overwhelming my brain. the frequency is lesser, the final breakthrough is near. yay!!
what kind of life am i going to have in MJC. not looking for a balanced lifestyle, but instead really looking to find a lifestyle wholly dependent on Your grace and mercy. i await. i seek You in all that i do.
& 1:17 AM
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Tuesday, March 27, 2007
draw me, draw me into Your presence.
drown me, drown me in Your glory.
fill me, fill me with Your being.
let me be so close to You,
let me drown...
i wanna be so close to You,
i wanna be brought near to You
i need You
i need all of You.
There is no one else other than You,
there is no one else but You.
You are my one and only,
You are awesome and holy
draw me closer
and closer to You
let me be so close to You.
bring me thru,
fill my heart.
i know we'll never be apart.
nothing can ever separate us,
nothing can.
i hold You so close,
i hold You close to my heart,
where we'll nv be apart.
& 11:38 PM
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i want to reflect Your light.
from olympia, by Patchfirefor constancy, for cunning, for courage that never ends;
for common sense and preparedness,
we fight, we live, we love
lilies surround us forever.
We were Ten, the residents of Lily tower.
That was our motto, our battle cry, our prayer.
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& 10:35 PM
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Monday, March 26, 2007
so much catch up work to do and there seems to be so lil' time.. hist, math, econs and lit. haix. tired out by the mundanity of life. every subj is interesting, but it does come with a price; there is much to study.not looking for a balanced life. i am looking for a life where He takes most of me so that when i am weak, then i am strong. i can nv support a balanced lifestyle on my own. i find that even just plainly talking about God makes me more refreshed. i feel uplifted.
i love econs and lit. they are both so fun.
hist is interesting, maths is familiar.
there are lots of upcoming programs that i can't even decide which one to apply for. wanna go for cambridge literature summer program. but, still dunno what's the criteria. then hist has quite a few, not interested in maths programs and econs also has some. haven even heard from KI. well, its going to be a busy year.
been seeing shern, cat and grace all over sch but haven got the chance to really catch up, esp w/ cat. missing her lor.
easter is drawing closer and its like there's no one to invite cos most of my class ppl are already believers.. haven started cca or anything.. how??? EAST A gotta grow. i will find the one who has been seeking all this while.
hazel. :)
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& 9:20 PM
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Saturday, March 24, 2007
orientation was fun.. it did get a little boring at times, but being in callisto was real great fun. getting to know the ppl in my civics groups, being part of all their jokes and stuff, made me feel comfortable in there.
gonna miss my caregroup when we restructure. have really come to enjoy their presence and their ways of doing life. yes, we will do our best for easter.
lots of working coming up.
jia you!
hazel//
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& 11:00 AM
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Monday, March 12, 2007
2 messages frm God during water bap. :
- obey and God will reveal His promises
- you're sent to your sch for a purpose, to rise up and be somebody
turn away, TURN AWAY.
dunno how many times have i heard His voice
soft, loud, sharp, clear
how many pleas and warnings
of various degrees
old has gone, new has come
i shall TURN AWAY.
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& 12:49 AM
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Thursday, March 08, 2007
Drago a pris l'écharpe, les yeux grands et douteux, Mais quand il l'a déployé et la scie le Dragon il a souri, « UN nouveau premier dans ma collection, » il a dit. « J'ai une pièce entière de chose de themed de dragon au Manoir. Maintenant, j'aurai une meilleure collection dans notre plat, commençant avec ceci ».
Harceler souri, a soulagé de retour que Drago a aimé son cadeau, « Alors je toujours saurai ce que pour trouver pour vous comme les cadeaux, » il a dit effrontément.
Drago a souri et a lié l'écharpe autour de son cou comme un foulard en désordre. « Vous aurez à regarder aux quatre coins du monde pour l'une que je n'ai jamais vu, donc ce n'est pas si facile ».
« Je regarderai, » a dit Harry, soudain sérieux. « Je regarderai partout juste aussi longtemps que vous êtes là-bas de l'obtenir ».
Drago a lissé l'écharpe autour de son cou, il a regardé profondément dans les yeux d'Harry, « je serai là-bas, Harry, » il a dit. « C'est le seul endroit que je veux être ». Labels: church
& 6:55 PM
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went early to school today, around 6:30 am and started waiting for Mr Kwan to arrive. sat in the admin office for bout half hr, then got a teacher, Mrs Lim, came outta the HOD rm. i aksed for Mr Kwan. in the end i spoke to her abt appeal. So had to get approval frm both Hist and Lit HOD. and i got both. it was great :D
sch was slackish. not much done, OGLs are insanely passionate bout the sch. a meridian pride is instilled in all of them. bout uniforms. all the sizes are weird, so going to alter it so that it is as close to tailor fit as possible. promised myself that i would get fitted uniforms in JC. ones that make me look good. :)
slpt when i came home. woke up when econs t'cher came. he was also very tired while i was refreshed. i know how that feels, so allowed him to talk a little off the point, guided him when he was confusing me.. he suddenly talked bout church, so can see that he was honestly tired. think he's a christian. :DD anyway, there came a problem in the worksheet, so he sat up & thought bout it, then he became awake, so the lesson proceeded better after that. must make sure that he isn't having a too long day before that if not i also won't get much outta the lesson.
econs is getting more complex, a bit drier, but its gonna be fun :D
tmr gonna work. ah well.
sw.
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& 6:21 PM
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Wednesday, March 07, 2007
MJC was relaxing.. BUT, i can't take the subject combi i wan... appeal, appeal, appeal!!!!
hope to get in. today was slack, and yay! i passed the KI test.. but if i not getting into the combi i wan, then no KI for me.
anxiously waiting to appeal tmr.
sw
water bap this Dimanche, YAY!
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& 11:04 PM
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Tuesday, March 06, 2007
got posted to MJC Arts. i guess i am one of the lucky ones, no need to appeal to get into the school i wan..
there's not much that i can say, except that i thank God that the whole JAE was a smooth process. Though my path wasn't clear at the beginning, but ultimately God placed me in MJ, then MJ it is..
i din struggle much, din quarrel much, din cry much. it was just a matter of saying that, You work beyond all of the JAE process, so where i go is where You send me. thankful that He gave me a smooth journey..
sounds like lots of ppl going to be in MJ, but mostly in science, so will not be interacting with them much. feels like i am one of the rare few who took hardcore science in sec sc and chose to take arts in JC. i nv took lit or hist after sec 2, but i am sure going to be a great adventure..
having a headache now, so better go slp. hoping for a gd day tmr. :D
sw.
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& 11:23 PM
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Monday, March 05, 2007
posting results coming out in a few hours time.. and i threw away my JAE PIN.. haix, so blur man.. dunno wat am i gonna do to check where i am supposed to go.. hopefully don't need the pin..
not nervous at all, just wanna know the results, cos wanna know where God lead me to.. honestly okay with wherever i end up at, just wanna go there and bring God glory.. gonna be 2 exciting yrs in a new sch..
yay, communications is gearing up again. woohoo! more stuff to do, gonna be fun.
my days are full even before sch starts:
monday night - french basic (ending soon)
wed night - spanish basic
thur night- french intermediate
fri night - rumba
sunday afternoon- cha cha
plus maths and econs tuition for 2 days, and there's sat svc.. full days.. imagine when sch and cca starts.. gonna be CRAZY...
can't wait to go out w/ cat, grace and manda tmr. miss them lots!! heh.. hopefully its happy shopping tmr. one last day of freedom before going to get busy like a bee..
gonna miss all those ppl in my french basic class, most of them not continuing straight away. sad, especially since i have got to know them better.. when they take intermediate, most likely i'll take advanced..
may be relaxing on dance when sch starts.. wan to at least learn basics first..
another thing to learn is fencing.. after A's going to learn: fencing, driving, wine appreciation.
need to start writing, if not i'll never get ther habit.. 30 days, i will make it a habit..
random thoughts all over the place, can't wait for posting to be out! hehe.
random,
sw
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& 11:50 PM
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life is not all that it is made out to be... i wan it to be perfect but it isn't..
tired of seeing the way the world sees things
tired of quitters
tired of negative remarks
tired, just tired...
persevere on
if u dun like it, take charge
raise your concern
no one is perfect, no one.
the only glue that holds us together is God
if He cease to exist, we wouldn't survive
we would break away
form our little groups
but since God exists, won't u persevere on
"it's not like that"
"it's not that easy"
won't u trust in Him and give it a try?
don't see things the way the world sees in,
there is something more than this.
more than this,
sw
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& 2:35 AM
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hmm.. life is just gearing up! taking up more language courses, taking tuition.. sch posting is going to be out soon, where i go is where God sends. Catherine's words always never fail to bring me back on the right track. "Studies and cca are not the most important thing in school." we are called to be a light in midst of darkness..
connect.
haven always been a connector, but of course, will definitely do it.. i know that w/ Him, i can do it..
going to be an exciting term 2.. hehe...
yay! yay! water bap is next sunday!
sw
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