seek to grow CLOSER

SHIFT

2008-11-07T16:38:00.002+08:00

OMG. it's been a month since i posted. LOL.

A'lvls have swallowed me up?

I am shifting to: allopenstar.livejournal.com

yes, i did it post-h2 math paper 2. and yes, i still i have papers.

i know.

going off to study?,

hazel

font

2008-10-10T05:22:00.002+08:00

my font is turning weird? no? XD

10 things

2008-10-10T05:14:00.003+08:00

10 Things I Hate About You

I hate the way you talk to me,

And the way you cut your hair.

I hate the way you drive my car,

I hate it when you stare.

I hate your big dumb combat boots

And the way you read my mind.

 hate you so much it makes me sick,

It even makes me rhyme.

I hate the way you’re always right,

I hate it when you lie.

I hate it when you make me laugh,

Even worse when you make me cry

I hate it when you’re not around,

And the fact that you didn’t call

But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you,

Not even close…

Not even a little bit…

Not even at all.

- from the movie '10 things i hate about you'

youtube link

i just like the words

& i swear i have seen this somewhere before.

ah well, its just my love of words.

hazel

AI7

2008-09-16T00:01:00.002+08:00

there's two Davids and two cooks in one room, but only three people. How?

Cos one person is a chef (cook), another is a guy name david (archuleta) and the third guy is david cook. lol.

sry, i know, lame.

lots of hype about top 2 in AI 7 these days cos their top 10 tour just ended. saw this joke somewhere on the net. :) been listening to david.a's single, 'Crush'. not bad.

prelims are killing me. thank goodness they are gonna be over :)))

A'lvls are coming soon (scary!)

hazel.

midnight sun and twilight

2008-09-06T04:12:00.004+08:00

Just found out that the first 12 chapter of Midnight Sun has been leaked. SIAN! for those of you who know me, i hate reading incomplete stories (they torture me!). So i am refraining from reading the book until it is published, no matter how long it takes.

Stephanie Meyer has said on her website that the book is on hold indefinitely, which means that i will definitely NOT read the drafts of Midnight Sun posted on her web page. Ya, she posted it, but i seriously am in no mood to read it. How long will it take to publish? 1 year, 2 years, 5 years? i would hate to spoil my experience in reading Midnight Sun. It's just not the same, reading the book, not knowing where it's going, compared to reading the book, and knowing where it will lead to. just like how i am avoiding reading the Twilight scripts. SERIOUSLY! i am ready to know what goes on in Mignight Sun when it is published, ready to know the script when the movie is out.

Oh ya, Twilight took the HP 6 spot on for release in 21st Nov, since HP6 has been moved to next yr june. So yay! twilight movie will be out early even before i end A'lvls.. lol.

hazel.

JUMP

2008-08-23T01:30:00.004+08:00

JUMP ( Jesus U Must Praise) concert at Fort Canning Green today was just the BOMB! absolutely super cool, with the entire church just under the stars, just praising and worshiping God. old songs, new songs, regulars, newbies, it was just such a great time, as the worship leaders really agave their all, and the youth just standing right in front, going high over praising and worshiping God. when i turned and looked back, it looked as if the people were never ending and i could see no end. i know that this is what we are aiming for, that we want to spread God's Word all around. :)

hazel

svc

2008-08-16T20:28:00.002+08:00

today, daniel cheah said something that really impacted me.

"the God who
CREATED me,
LOVES me,
ADORES me,
DIES for me,
LIVES for me,
BLESSES me,
is FAITHFUL to me."

yes yes yes! all these things, my God does for me, over and over again.

WOW.

amazed,
hazel

words

2008-08-16T20:26:00.001+08:00

He's probably too drunk to drive. With icy roads barely salted, an early winter makes travel for the responsible dangerous. And Lex is a lot of things, but no one's ever accused him of being a responsible driver.

Yes, after-school special time, or maybe something his nanny should have banged into him between boarding schools, but he's never followed the entire 'just say no' concept very well. It's always been 'yes' and always 'more' and always now.

Lex is a big fan of more.

More attention, more love, more sex, more drugs, more money, more power, more everything. With a bank account that crosses eleven digits and sole control of the largest corporation in America, the word 'more' is starting to take on new and interesting dimensions, because he's twenty-six and there's nothing nothing he hasn't done once and better. He's only twenty-six, and he's achieved the one and only thing his father ever taught him how to want.

The high won't last. Highs never do. Even the mostly-legal kind.

So. Driving. Lamborghini, a car that's almost as good as a fuck--better if he counts the socialites he's been fucking recently. He's been an adrenaline junkie from birth if the few stories he remembers of his early childhood are anywhere close to accurate, but the last thing that scared him was heights. Six months playing at skydiving removed that pretty damn thoroughly. One-fifty in a forty mile per hour zone is pretty much something he can sneeze at--oh, but that was five seconds ago. He passed into one eighty when he made that last exit.

Wow. That's not too bad for a major highway at two in the morning.

Cars are good though. God knows, he has enough of them. Fifty at last count, and he tries to add them up--Ferraris and Porsches and Jaguars and the Aston from Smallville, the pretty little Roadster he remembers buying during a particularly difficult takeover, and the Mercedes that had to have been some kind of lost bet, because he can't stand to drive it. Not--quite the right feeling. Not like silk, not like sex, nothing like this, and it sure as fuck won't hit two hundred.

Two hundred. Jesus.

He's drunk, right. Focus, Lex.

......

just saw this somewhere.

brilliant opening line: He's probably too drunk to drive.

ILOVEWORDS,
hazel

twilight craze

2008-08-08T00:14:00.003+08:00

since i have started (and completed) the twilight saga, i have become more sensitive to the ppl ard me who are reading it. like i am seeing more and more strangers w/ it. feels weird.

2 things about twilight:

1. it's becoming a trend (which sucks! cos it diminishes the value of the book)
2. the twilighters are fantics. they are so vehement about jacob or edward, and critical of the upcoming movie. and some of them seriously hate jacob or edward. (personal feelings here: i think that w/o jacob, bella and edward's relationship would not have grown so strong, so i like them both, though jacob gets kinda annoying and edward is a tad too protective.)

i seriously hope that it won't be something that mindless ppl squee over but it'll be a series where the writing style and plot of stephanie meyer is appreciated. i can't stand mindless sheep following a trend. meyer has brilliant chracterization, one of the many reasons to enjoy her work. don't trivialise it. sometimes i just shudder when i see certain types of ppl following the trend. LESS squeeing and extreme statements like "HOW CAN YOU LIKE JACOB/EDWARD? HE SUCKS!" and MORE rational discussion and engagement with plot and character. esp after the conclusion has already been written...

a twilighter (trying to avoid becoming an extreme fan),
hazel

lol

2008-08-04T20:03:00.002+08:00

just realised (after dinner) that my prev post was devoid of any link to my post on 19th jul. anyway, i did create a macromedia bridge diagram :) totally proud of it :)

hazel

TWILIGHT

2008-08-04T19:03:00.003+08:00

i was walking INNOCENTLY to kino on sat w/ grace chin when my eyes got assaulted by a trailer that was playing on their TV. it was a promotional vid of an upcoming movie. i was lost.

what movie? TWILIGHT. yup, i am now in the crazy for this cool series. can't believe i have to wait till 12 dec this yr for the movie to be out, but thank goodness i din fall into the series (though i've seen it millions of times in kino) before the concluding fourth book came out this yr 31st may.

the series is not exactly the usual high fantasy that i read, and i might have called it trash were it not for the compelling characterization. i really never knew i was such a sucker for true love romance stories. like seriously. i totally love the fact that the two main characters are so in love with each other. everything else is just icing on the cake. i totally enjoy how she really stand can't to be without his presence and how he can't stop worrying about her. i din know my preference for such stories till now. i am so HOOKED! oh did i mention that the main male character and his family are vampires? that is just brilliant! she (stephanie meyer, the author) has really good characterization :) to anyone who is reading this, read the book! really brilliant! and not your trad love story, lots of action that just adds to the tension of the plot...

i love the movie posters :) can't wait to watch!

hazel

stuff

2008-07-19T22:20:00.004+08:00

From looking for a macromedia flash version of the Bridge Diagram (which i think don't exist), i went on to look at other stuff.

First, the historical existence of Jesus. i am definitely secure in my relationship (not religion!) with God. It's just that while i may have heard from church that Jesus really did existed, i just wanted to see what was out on the internet about Jesus' existence, 'cos i can't go to any apologetic class at church any time soon (too late at night). and cos jocelyn (a non-believing friend) doubted 'bout it. Read about both sides of the argument, but no one was able to give actual proof of Jesus' existence or non-existence, esp during the time He lived, mostly 'cos the historians at that time did not view him as a significant historical figure then. (He died the worst kind of death a criminal could suffer from. Who would have thought He was important?) Will continue reading on, but have to admit it's sometimes hard to read the opposing view of the Jesus' existence (that He did not exist) not because it weakens my faith, but cos sometimes the tone is rather egoistic.

then i went on to watch this vid from youtube.

rather humorous. i may have used some of the excuses in the past, but after this wk of evaxing, i am definitely over all of them. i won't let excuses stop me from sharing the love of God to others. CLIQUE HERE was really good. ah well..

next week will be better.:)

thinking of making a macromedia flash bridge digram,
hazel

desperation

2008-07-19T00:19:00.002+08:00

i can't believe that after an entire week of active evaxing and fasting and praying, we are still not seeing results. being so active in evaxing shows us how few ppl know about the love of God, but at the same time is also rather discouraging when they fail to respond.

but we all know that this is in His plan. the holy discontent within the group is so evident, so tangible that we really really cannot stand no one coming for ESS. to me personally, it's not next week or whenever. it's NOW. it's really now that matters. ppl have to hear, see and experience the goodness of God. it is so imperative that they do so. i will go down to sch tmr to try one last time. when i give my best, i know that God will definitely do the rest. i wanna see fruits tmr, pls. :)

everything that we do, let it be for Your sovereign cause.

insanely growing in God,
hazel

prayer meet

2008-07-12T23:58:00.002+08:00

If we don't pray for our school, who will? -Catherine

If we want to touch people, we must first be touched by God - Sheeting

Today's core team meet was AMAZING. God was just moving, just working as we prayed for an hour. it didn't seem so long, and we just kept at it, just engaging in spiritual warfare. Prophecies and visions came, and MJ was told to claim in the promise of the mustard seed, that while we may be the smallest not, we shall grow into one of the largest groups. and yes, we will claim it! we also shared openly about the sins in our lives as catherine revealed God's unhappiness with the sins we have been harbouring in my life. as we hold each other accountable, we will definitely complete CG08 and beyond.

i KNOW we will.

hazel

becoming

2008-07-08T09:00:00.000+08:00

who am I becoming? i will be who You want me to be, not by the world standards, but by Yours, i will stand...

Yours,
Hazel

Orson Scott Card

2008-07-06T23:48:00.002+08:00

Speaker for the dead by Orson Scott Card is just brilliant. I read Ender's Game a year ago, but Card still manages to bring Ender to life for me again. The intensity, the complexity, it just blows me away. I can't wait to buy the next book in the series, and this time round, i'll make sure i'll buy ALL the books in the series. hehe. that's just me!

it's been absolutely relaxing after MYEs, but i have spent all my money so i am kinda dead.

received shocking news on sat, that there'll be new additions to MJ CG. always though iw ould have to go look for sheep, but i guess when i am asking to grow in patience, love and tolerance, what else would God give other than new sheep? haha. it was also really great to see swee hong attend svc w/ the tpj group :)

can't wait wait to grow,
hazel

SOLUTION

2008-06-27T23:41:00.001+08:00

listening to Solution by Hillsong is like Elizabeth reading Darcy's letter. I am falling more and more in love with God!

yes, i will run for the least of these and politics will not decide if i should rise.

God is the SOLUTION.

this week's exams is insane but God has REALLY been w/ me. :)

contented and on fire,
hazel

Godly blogging

2008-06-15T01:26:00.002+08:00

another example of Godly blogging:

"it makes a world of a difference about Great Commission being fulfilled in this lifetime and the next. if it’s gonna be completed before I die, then all my perspectives must change. there’d be no use for owning more bungalows and luxurious cars, ’cause Jesus isn’t going to look at what physical properties I have, but rather what I’ve done for Him, the lives I’ve played a part to impact in." - James, JCEA4

this really led me to reconsider the way i want to live my life in the future.

i saw ps shirls blog about james' blog and it led me to wonder, 'is it the james from vj i know?' and i went to check it out and it is! really glad to have known such a life transformed, especially one whom i have worked closely with. it's great that he shared his conviction online. this is really Godly blogging, one that will lead ppl even closer to God.

if you expect, God will meet your every expectation and even above it!

hazel

OASIS

2008-06-15T01:07:00.002+08:00

JC district - we will GROW!

OASIS was crazy! like insane, cos i can't really stay over, so had to rush down every morn from home.

my first 2 days were spent waiting on God, seriously just waiting and waiting AND WAITING.
then on the third night, REVELATION! like within one prophecy, God allowed me to meet my objectives and more. WOAH! it was just so sudden, and my life is NEVER the same again. my desires have changed, my dreams have changed.

power and influence. i will be BOLD.

hazel

blogging

2008-06-05T01:41:00.002+08:00

“If you want to make me laugh, tell me your plans.” — GOD

i saw this on pastor shirls blog, from WAAAY long along. i often forget to check up on ppls blog, or at least to read what's gg on in their life, but everytime i catch up on what's going on in shirls lfe, i find that her every entry is God-glorifying. it really makes me want to stop typing rubbish and to start making my blog more than just for this life only...

God, i am planning on changing my style of blogging, whaddya think?

hazel

pre u sem 2008

2008-06-05T01:12:00.002+08:00

this is seminar group 4 of pre u sem 2008

i love all of them! i will nv meet a bunch like them ever again..

hazel

crack me up

2008-05-23T22:55:00.001+08:00

This line from "The Top 100 Things I'd Do If I Ever Became An Evil Overlord" just cracks me up.

45. If an advisor says to me "My liege, he is but one man. What can one man possibly do?", I will reply "This." and kill the advisor.

SO FUNNY!!!

TRASH

2008-05-14T21:04:00.000+08:00

i know what's impeding me. TRASH. i will cut down on it...

i will glorify!

mood

2008-05-11T22:34:00.006+08:00

i am currently in this insane mood, that makes me think that alexander and hephaestion together is a really beautiful thing. like seriously. i was watching Alexander (movie), where alexander was acted by colin farrell, and throughout the entire movie, there was extremely high UST. like insanely high levels. and i was like, can't they just, i dunno, resolve it? haha..
.
it is also this insane mood, plus today's mother's day lots of cakes, that made me think, in the future, when i get married, the first bday i spend as a married woman, i wan a fully chocolate cake. and i wan champagne and strawberries on my wedding night.

yup, i guess hormones raging is a good reason for deviancy.

i apologise to those who dunno why it is deviant, and futher apologise to those who don't understand what is deviant.

just in an insane mood today.

hazel

panagram

2008-04-26T12:31:00.001+08:00

The quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog.

The bright wizard, Draco Malfoy, quells anxious oppressive jerks.

i love panagrams!
panagram: a sentence that has all the letters in the alphabet.

time

2008-04-06T19:21:00.002+08:00

As i think about this yr, i realised that it has already flown past me. i want it to fly past, so that the A's will be over ASAP.. but at the same time, i know that time is running out. not only to study, but also to wan to spread the goodness of God to the ppl ard me. CG08 must come to pass for mj, we will not remain stagnant. it is such a major contrast... i wan time to fly, so that NAFTA will pass, but i also wan to treasure each and every moment w/ my friends. it is such a inherent contradiction for me.. i wan, but also resist..

the best is to let time flow at its own speed, and just go along w/ God's plan in my life. now if only i can convince myself to stop thinking about this messy issue...

hazel

Pre U Sem SLO Training Camp

2008-03-29T20:57:00.009+08:00

it's been a crazy 2 days! from friday after sch to sat 7pm, i have been stuck in sch w/ my fellow SLOs to begin the first step of our training to becoming a professional(*ahem*) SLO for pre-u sem.

I was in grp 2, 2 HSBC!

grp members (NOT in order of photo):
girls - aisyah, qianwen, li yi, kaiwei, me
guys - jeremy, sean

we're called 2 HSBC cos we're too HOT, too SEXY, too BLACK and too COOL! came up w/ this fun idea after jeremy and sean, who are both half indians. they are our too(two) black. it has been great fun spending the camp with them, and doing all the camp activities w/ them.

though this camp may have seem boring, we did learn ALOT of useful things that would benefit us when we take on the role of an SLO for pre-u sem.

here are the charts that we learnt from:

really easy to learn from, yet also VERY effective.
we had fun using these techniques as we taught games to our peers. their games were also really interesting and different.

another thing i liked abt the camp:

we had to design a poster of our names on the 1st day and were given affirmations through post-it notes from ppl in the camp. this lasted throught he whole camp and we could add affirmations whenever we wanted to, so as to encourage others and to boost their self esteem. it's a really good system, one that will keep ppl spirits up. maybe can implement in class?

pre-u sem SLO camp is really a short and sweet experience and an intense time of bonding w/ our SLO grp mates too. it's a camp worth going. glad i din miss it!

hazel.

new hse

2008-03-23T00:06:00.016+08:00

from:

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to:

i am so gonna miss my old home. din even get a chance to take a proper pic of my old room before we started moving. my new place is cosy (aka small), but it doesn't have a sense of ME. haha, me and my old messy-ness. been having my own room since p5, feels weird to share w/ my sis. can't just stay up and surf the net anymore. need to buy a table lamp. ah well, i''ll get used to it, and be salt and light to my sis ya? maybe this is a God-given chance. :)

wanna come see my new place? just ask me :D

tmr is official moving in. but also staying over tonight..

feels weird not to take 72, ride the lift up to the 8th floor, listen to the automated voice. walked the same old path for YEARS. been so near to grace and lots of other places. near to MJC. my new hse is so close to tamp that it actually only takes 2 stops to reach tamp, near tpj there.. gonna miss the easy access to grace hse, can stay till very late in the past.

seems just so fast, very weird. not used to it at all..

hazel

sch

2008-03-17T22:37:00.002+08:00

march block test on the first day of sch! econs was considered okay, but lit and hist are DEAD.

went to changi and ate:
laksa, choc brownie w/ nut, chicken tenders, tom yam ban mian, thai noodle, beancurd, spicy chicken, oyster vermicelli, toast, mee siam, laksa (again!)

din eat ALL of it myself (shared w/ grace and cat), but did eat a large proportion of it.
don't care! haha, some exe after march block test would be good...

came back home and had to help my younger sis w/ young environmentalist badge. why do they force younger kids to do such useless stuff? how did i even go through my pri sch life w/o an older sibling?

lit and hist are killer subjects! bleh.

want to be a diplomat (and outta sch!),
hazel

SIMUN

2008-03-15T21:29:00.004+08:00

Peru (Jezer) and Russia being smug about theirs being the ONLY resolution that 'passed' in General Assembly.

joining SIMUN 2008 ( 13- 15 march) was the best thing i have ever done this yr. It was the best experience ever! being in the political comm definitely exposed me to alot of diplomatic speech and the use of sarcasm as a tool. It was really great!

ugly me on first day opening speech

me discussing w/ netherland, nigeria, slovakia, malaysia, philippines, congo, sudan about the zimbabwe issue.

our resolution got passed! yay! it was a brilliant resolution and a great defense by USA and netherlands. they were amazing!

we met amazing ppl ( both the Russian Federation & the USA are great teams).

political delegate of Russia in the middle
(HOTTEST FEMALE DELEGATE IN POLITICAL COMM)

political delegate of USA (real good speaker!)

best line:" the delegate of romania says that this UN resolution is passed for the sake of the USA. The delegate of USA would like to ask, aren't all UN resolutions passed for the sake of the USA?"

real good speaker of Russia and witty!

also had the Holy See, who were really 'godly' and made lots of reference to God in their speech..

It's been a great experience. join next yr if you can!

in deep trouble for march block test,
hazel

stuff in my life

2008-03-11T23:10:00.003+08:00

been super long that i din update le.

been watching criminal minds. super nice show!! not as good as heroes, but really really cool.

I like the character dr spencer reid, played by matthew gray gubler. really cool character. he's the one on the extreme right :D totally intriguing character. watch it! its really a good show on behavioural analysis. super cool.

been worrying abt SIMUN, doing up resolution and making sure that i got the right procedures. gonna be real fun but i feel totally unprepared. must be cos of the lack of real in depth preparation. but it'll still be great!

most of CCA stuff are done, 'cept for second issue of the musings. bleh, don't even talk abt it. the teachers who are in charge are pushing us to our limits , and not in a good way. ppl in my cca can't stand them. bleh

got a B for cl w/ dist for oral/listening. not taking again though. kinda a risk and a waste of time. have to focus on core subjects.

marchblock test coming and its gonna be insane, need to really start studying, like lit and hist. DEAD. hah, all the best to me. :D

studying (NOT AT ALL),
hazel

soiree, hello love, musings

2008-02-26T23:00:00.002+08:00

Sing like no one's listening,

love like you've never been hurt,

dance like nobody's watching,

and live like its heaven on earth.

soiree is over. was not bad, but could have had more ppl.
musings is out, i am half disgusted, half proud. i will be possessive of what is ours from now on.
hello, love ess is over. amazing dance, cool song. its been really great.

i want to treasure each and every moment i have, esp since this is my last yr and i am very close to my civics grp 07a201, and my caregroup JCEA1.

make the most of this yr..

hazel

obama

2008-02-14T17:46:00.001+08:00

barack obama is democratic. but is he liberal??

hmm.

still supporting the obama campaign,
hazel

lunar new year

2008-02-09T23:32:00.000+08:00

today is a good day. a really good one. morning spent w/ my family of God. it was great just eating with them, being w/ them. :) just talking rubbish and challenging each other to eat xiao long bao.
had to rush off, but also to another great gathering.

went to find o7a2o1, my class from mj. (duh) wanted to watch sweetney todd at suntec, but no good timing. so slacked ard and decided to watch at toa payoh. stupid stupid plot, but great images & nice songs. but STUPID plot. atonement was better.

rushed to gathering at grace hse. tino was there le. got to talk to tino, and catch up w/ wen jie. :) a really good night. just playing stupid games, looking back at the past. was a great night, and really thank God for grace's mom who organised this for us. :)

lunar new year is a time for the past to catch up on us....

hazel.

family of God

2008-02-03T00:24:00.000+08:00

Your love
it broke my fall

today is really really cool. went out shopping with a grp of ppl from JC EA. though i got scolded by my dad for being home so late, i feel really blessed to have gone out with them. just fun to walk ard, talk nonsense abt cny and cny clothes.. though the guys can be REALLY crappy, they never fail to make me laugh (ok, maybe i laugh at all stupid jokes...) but it was really great to fellowship w/ them, know more abt their lives, esp as the brothers endure us shopping ard, and us sisters enduring THEIR shopping ard too.. felt blessed on the mrt as we joke ard.. today jc district meet is also very very very cool!

i really love this family of God.

hazel

looking

2008-01-30T23:21:00.000+08:00

i am looking for something. it bugs me that i can't find it. no matter how much i search. it hovers at the back of my mind, bu i don't know the exactly place to find it. and it makes me wan to find it even more. urgh! i really really wan to find it. usually, i can pinpoint where to find it, but now i can't....

i wan to read it.

2008-01-17T23:13:00.000+08:00

Our fathers were indifferent foes. We were beloved enemies. Perhaps someday we might live in a world where our sons will be true friends.

missing my j1 year

2008-01-04T23:56:00.000+08:00

Things i am missing from J1:

1. Walking around
sure, it might have taken a lot of time and energy, but we got to move around, and not be stuck to one class. we also could enjoy air-con, unlike now where we have no chance.

2. Slack atmosphere
no talk of a'lvls, nor any about lack of time. it was just about grades and studying. lots of reminders about PW (which i really really really miss)

3. Being youngest
the younger batch in school, we could play around and just have fun. we had seniors and people who were guiding us directly (till june at least...). teachers also excused us somewhat, cos we had another year to mature.

4. Taking KI and PW
both were real fun, esp towards the end, where KI became concentrated and PW became more intense. KI became a very tight grp and we really bond tgt. for PW, we knew our topic and SERIOUSLY enjoyed it. though both were frustrating and stressful, it was also great fun studying w/ jezer, nic and ian for KI and doing PW w/ kath, clare and shane. 2 great subjects if you got great teammates. i got them. =D

5. Joining in school activities
orientation, colosseum, LTC, funfestique. all a great time to boost house and sch spirit. it was fun just simply dancing mass dance, doing house cheers, and having a great time with the sch. i miss LTC, where we would just cheer for nth, and do stupid things. DAGAMA is cool!

switching journal

2007-12-29T01:55:00.000+08:00

how easy indeed. but i will not falter.

i am thinking of switching journal, but dunno which. xanga, lj, or ij. lj is having some troubles now, so it really depends...

sch is starting soon, and i am going to be shifting house too. will be so weird. i have lived here for so long. maybe i'll even unconciously take bus 72 home after i shift. gonna miss this place..

ff.net

2007-12-28T11:02:00.000+08:00

it would be so easy to fall back in again.

Kyou Kara Maou

2007-12-26T01:15:00.000+08:00

just finished watching kyou kara maou. really great anime series... its fun and interesting, gets draggy sometimes but really kinda funny :D

x'mas has come and gone, and i find that there is no better place to spend x'mas than with God's family. we had a great time carolling...

X29

2007-12-18T01:07:00.000+08:00

X29 is a simple camp, with a really great message. teachings were great, and the tenth youth anniversary was great. totally love yo! mag and hopetv was relaunched in camp :D

conviction: ONE surrendered life, to make a GREAT difference.

cg08 is ending in a year's time.. would be extremely cool to REALLY complete it. and i really wan to leave a legacy. no repeat experience like from sec 4 in cchms. this time, we will do it!

seeing the value in the KOG,
hazel

p.s: got a stupid computer virus.. haix

Heroes Season 2

2007-12-05T19:56:00.000+08:00

Heroes Season 2

a short season, affected by the strike. the tension of each episode is different, but there is still the sense of suspense that is commonly associated w/ heroes. lots of interesting plot lines that has a great space for development. but was totally cut short by the strike. the last final episode, episode 11, was wrapped up quite loosely, not as tight as season one. plots were also cut short. season 3 has potential, depends on how the writer develop the story.

good plotline, still a great show.

BEST OF THE BEST 2007

2007-12-04T22:04:00.000+08:00

BEST MOMENTS IN 2007:

1. Cambridge Trip
two weeks that i will never forget; studying, living, traveling. it is a great experience. Just being surrounded by a different culture, not only at cambridge, but seeing london, bath and canterbury. watching othello at the globe, studying at girton. great bonding btw the 4 KI students. got to know more of the lit people, and more sci people. ABSOLUTELY COOL!

2. Vivocity with Cat, Grace, Amanda.
first outing since school started, really spent time with each other, watched movies, walk around, talk to each other at b&j. able to catch up with each other. shopping and seeing heroes. super great feeling. totally love them!! :D

3. Project Work w/ Kat, Clare and Shane
amazing team of people. just WOW. i was very very lucky to have been grouped with them. we had amazing group dynamics; shane's knowledge, kat's organisation, clare's ideas, my compliation. just had a smooth time with them, no great quarrels, lots of fun, laughter. the best PW group EVER. i am so glad that i worked wit them, and art is a GREAT topic! PAINT rocks! <33

4. musings@meridian 1 published
my team worked like crazy during and after promos just to complete it. all the designing and articles from basically ground zero. after all the crisis, on pixels and bleeding, it finally was published. a greater one will be out next! :D

5. Studying Knowledge & Inquiry (KI)
what an amazing journey! from 'knowing' totally nothing, to being able to talk about maths, science, art and religion in terms of knowledge. its training is just so intense and and yet at the same time enjoyable. i will be ending it by this year, but i WILL continue in university. :D

random?

2007-11-25T06:59:00.000+08:00

might have noticed that my blog is full of random quotes these days? obviously non-KI ones, which is a bad thing. i have been stuck at home and have been reading obsessively. night becomes day, day becomes night. i haven stepped out of the house in days. my holiday is just passing me by. just been reading, and just letting words surround me.

my days are filled with tuition, tuition homework, reading, tuition, reading.. you get the idea. usually i wouldn't have done anything about next year until the very end of the hols but now i have covered both math and econs hwk for the hols and starting on lit. this is just crazy.

camp is coming soon, and finally can get outta the hse. can't wait for camp! X29! another four days just being completely SOAKED in God's presence.

hazel.

Whispers by Maldoror

2007-11-24T23:08:00.000+08:00

"Trowa?"

//Yes?//

"We're on our way."

// ...Good.// I love working with these guys. It's like living in a crossword puzzle. What's a four letter word for 'Wow, he's alive, that's wonderful, Duo'?

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

"You're back!" Quatre bounces towards us like a happy puppy, as if he hadn't had his gun trained on the door when we opened it, ready to blow any intruder away with clinical efficiency. Sometimes, I think we're not normal teenagers.

2007-11-21T23:54:00.000+08:00

remember a few months ago when aradhna said smth bout my EL? ii found an entry from when i was starting sec 3..

"haiy.... the *boy's name* thing dulled liaox.. but not *another boy's name*... i dunno wat to think lorx.. at first he msg mi.. then i was like... ok lorx... maybe he wan to noe all the ppl in the cls.. then he offered to help mi find ans to math qn and accompany mi to find slipper... wah.. i realli dunno wat to think lorx.. at first i was thinkin.. maybe he wan to noe every one better... then later when he msg i was like maybe he wanna be good frenz... like ** and ***... then later he offer to help in maths and the slippers thing.. then i was omg... wat the hell lorx... i dunno wat to think liaox.. but wat eva it muz b 4 to 5 mths of fren ship first.. so if anything across franship fails.. still can fall back on frenship lor... haiy.. i dunno larx... wat to think.. i mean its like he's not realli good looking... blockhead a little.... then talk too little.. not much humorous that comes naturally.. not charming enuff u can say.. not into sports.. and not confident... but he oso has a quiet assurance.... and he's quiet and studious.... but i dun like his low confidence.. mi dun like... haiy.. the *another boy's name* is confident.. i then he's osos naturalli humourous... so like it'll be fun lorx... but den anything wif *another boy's name* looks temporary... while wif *boy's name* it could last longer.. and i oso dunno if this is a dare anot.. haiy... dunno larx... haiy.. dunno lehx.... wateva larx... juz frenz first.. frens first....."

P.S there are only 2 boys, boy and another boy.

see how horrendous my EL was. i can't even read it. this is crazy. haha. and how ABSOLUTELY CHILDISH i was should not be ignored. crazy ol' me.. :D

childish days, childish thoughts.

hazel.

What separates us

2007-11-21T22:39:00.001+08:00

"Next time, I'm getting a handicap. It's totally unfair that you're not only quite a bit better than me at chess, but completely distracting to play with."

what separates us by amy. the bunny farm

2007-11-21T21:27:00.000+08:00

"Because I've always known that when you fell, you were going to fall hard."

SWEET Always

2007-11-21T16:30:00.000+08:00

"It's you. It's always been you."

SWEET.

miss them

2007-11-20T13:09:00.000+08:00

cat, grace and manda have gone to hong kong today morn. i totally forgot!!! i really really miss them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hazel

The Professional's Guide to Badgering People by Maya

2007-11-20T00:54:00.000+08:00

Harry Potter fanfic

"Does he remind you a bit of Ernie?" Zacharias asked Susan in a low voice.

"It's not paranoia when the Dark Lord really is out to get you."

"Huh. So Harry is Ernie in a world where Ernie is always right." Zacharias shook his head. "I love this world. It makes so little sense."

"I think the world's supposed to make sense, Zacharias."

"Ha," said Zacharias. "Where have you been?"

"Do you mind?" Harry frowned. "Stop talking. This is serious, you know."

Zacharias shrugged.

e.e. cummings

2007-11-20T00:06:00.000+08:00

"lovers alone wear sunlight."
e.e. cummings

post

2007-11-16T21:38:00.000+08:00

Poem

by Frank O'Hara

When I am feeling depressed and anxious sullen
all you have to do is take off your clothes
and all is wiped away revealing life's tenderness
that we are flesh and breathe and are near us
as you are really as you are I become as
I really am alive and knowing vaguely what is
and what is important to me above the intrusions
of incident and accidental relationships
which have nothing to do with my life.

When I am in your presence I feel life is strong
and will defeat all its enemies and all of mine
and all of yours and yours in you and mine in me
sick logic and feeble reasoning are cured
by the perfect symmetry of your arms and legs
spread out making an eternal circle together
creating a golden pillar beside the Atlantic
the faint line of hair dividing your torso
gives my mind rest and emotions their release
into the infinite air where since once we are
together we always will be in this life come what may

totally love the last line...

hazel.

london, singapore china....

2007-11-07T01:34:00.000+08:00

london, singapore china....

everyone is building a wheel...

hazel.

2007-11-05T23:51:00.000+08:00

Summertime. You and me. There is no word to describe us. Are we friends or are we lovers?

cool tagline :))

a letter from hell.

2007-11-04T02:00:00.000+08:00

To Know Your Name by hillsong is co cool. i love the lyrics, and the way it was sang today at svc, just purely singing w/o the mikes, its really about us reaching out to God. today's sermon was convicting, yes, there are open chairs. i swear i have heard the sermon before. and watching the clip on east a's blog was the final straw. there are chairs that must be filled.

still not perfect, struggling with lots of sch stuff, lit, KI, I&R... then there is camp comm stuff to do... but i know that He is with me, He'll lead me where i need to be, where i need to go. remember today's prophecy, bout God letting go for us to grow. He loves us enough to let us go through such obstacles so that we may grow.

still under His grace..

hazel

to know Your name
to live within the Saviour's love

p.s: i MUST say this. i absolutely enjoyed kat's post on our PW grp. LOVE my PW grp :D AWESOME. BRILLIANT. GENIUS.

lost phone

2007-11-02T01:40:00.000+08:00

ble.h i lost my phone. nuff said. but also not upset. cos my dad was really nice. and i knew that if my phone was off, means the person has no conscience and i dun have to bother. bleh. please sms me ur numbers. i'll get my sim card tmr at 7pm. so frm 8pm can message me.

got the book that ps shirley was talking about, the women and shopping one. really a wake up call. WOW. good book.

hazel

PW is OVER!!!

2007-10-31T23:13:00.000+08:00

i totally can't believe it. PW is OVER!! final oral presentation was today. AWESOME. TOTALLY AWESOME. (no matter what 'trival' thing we did) gosh i LOVE my PW group. i am going to miss doing PW with them. shane, kat and clare were and still are AMAZING!!!! :)))

from the very beginning of choosing shane's PI, started meeting to do GPP ( we are so great!), then doing WR and polishing it till it shine. finally doing the OP together. the slides were just gorgeous!!!! so was the entire presentation. gonna miss bugis national library, kat's hse, clare's hse and all the other places we did PW tgt. thank God for all my PW members. we rarely quarrelled, though we DID have some high tension moments. but its was great doing ART with them.

the entire project wouldn't have been possible w/o them. shane, for drawing all the cool stuff, add spice to project, doing the slides and your yrs of knowledge in art. kat, for ALWAYS never failing to organise our schedule, always initiating the meeting time and collating WR. clare, for the best CALENDAR ever, and for all the jokes and laughter, as well as polishign of the two lovely showcasings!! ms wong, for guiding and leading us, spamming us w/ emails, so that we may score our A!

gonna miss doing PW. i wanna do it all over again!! with this great grp of ppl who made our project the most memorable one:DDDDD

just AMAZING!!! muacks! i love my PW grp!

hazel (superhero LOL)

p.s heroes 2 episode 6- did they really just end that way?

what to do?

2007-10-30T00:59:00.000+08:00

exchange laptop w/ my mom. but the thing is, what to do w/ it? haha. feels weird. i should get started on the reg form thing.

OP is coming soon, and i think we're doing a great job. :)

hazel

cl a'lvls

2007-10-28T22:46:00.001+08:00

tmr is chinese a's. hope to get an A!!!

cl a'lvls

2007-10-28T22:46:00.000+08:00

tmr is chinese a's. hope to get an A!!!

HEROES

2007-10-25T22:30:00.000+08:00

Heroes, the tv series, is so much more than just superpowers. new orleans, hit by hurricane, we see how the people are living and reconstructing. the use of english, japanese, spanish and french is so cool, multicultural and across time. its not about a hero w/ all the powers, it is about how each and every person can be a hero, with or without powers, and how everyone is vulnerable, even those with powers. its about life. cool. i can see why its so popular. love the pop art paintings, very cool. :D

HEROES! <3

hazel

ogl and stuff?

2007-10-24T04:25:00.000+08:00

din get in for ogl. bleh. am i sad? NOPE. but definitely disappointed. ah well.

life is not simple these days. not focused, not to the point.

i know that can be more than this, BUT:

question of the day: for WHICH cause?

hazel.

funny sonnet :D

2007-10-23T02:55:00.000+08:00

"I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
I love you because I know no other way
than this: where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that when your eyes close I fall asleep."
-Sonnet 17 by Pablo Neruda

COOL!!

reading

2007-10-22T23:17:00.000+08:00

for me, the feeling i get after reading a completed story is not one of satisfaction. in fact, it is more dissatisfaction than satisfaction.

reading...

ahh!!

2007-10-19T01:49:00.001+08:00

pw WR is finally going to end and gonna start on the final oral presentation. finally after one year. YAY! thanks to all my group mates, they have been totally supportive and fun and cool! kat, shane and clare, they are so great to work with!!!

today have been asked to consider dropping KI. bleh. cos i got 2 h2 only marginal pass. haix. ian has dropped it already, so i dunno lor. if i take GP, need to work hard but definitely CAN catch up, cos dun have to worry bout IS or anything. if i take KI, it'll be another great year of inquiry and studying various philosophers. so now how? i also dunno. i wan to continue taking KI, i was adaman on taking in the morning, but after a day, i understand where dr alfi is coming frm, that KI shouldn't harm my other grades. i dunno, tmr she is going to be meeting my parents. if i do drop, the thing i'll miss most is studying w/ other KI students and learning under dr alfi and ms goh. :( He knows what i want and what i need. i will leave it in His hands.

raymond lam is going to be another actor that will go down in my memory as a great actor as well as a person. i like him just as i like michael rosenbaum and alan rickman. haha. it's really rare but i do admire his person as well as acting :D

anyway, heroes 2 episode 4 is a bit draggy... ah well. :D its still good. :D

hazel.

new skin!

2007-10-16T23:43:00.000+08:00

its been so long since i have used a non-christian skin. it doesn't mean that God is not first in my life, He still is. wanna have a change, and there aren't much blogskins for my 2 other fav actors, alan rickman and michael rosenbaum. the current skin is simple, and lots of cute pics of raymond lam :D so i like. haha. plus chionging hongkong shows now that the promos are over. really enjoy how raymond acts in all of the shows he is in. :D

just like raymond lam now, think he'll be another actor that i will really enjoy watching, along w/ rickman and rosenbaum :D

can't wait to watch heroes 2 episode 4!!!

hazel. :D

blogs

2007-10-15T03:25:00.000+08:00

just read some depressing sombre blogs. they make my heart feel heavy.

my alternative is ALWAYS to read ps shirls blog or dennis blog. :D they make me feel happier i guess. :D

sw.

after promos life

2007-10-15T02:58:00.000+08:00

sometimes, it just pops into my head. i wish it doesn't but it does. so i currently replacing one addiction with another habit. i hope it will work. it better.

project work is piling up, and chinese a's are coming soon. CCA just completed a major task. :) i am still always late. i think i am running away from life? commitment? promos are over and i just wanna play. this hols is piled with growth - studies, spiritual and all the other stuff. no playing, at least not according to my definition of playing.

drowning myself in youtube videos, hong kong shows, dances. visual stimulation will distract and destress me. why am i feeling stressed? ah well.

thank You, for reminding me that You are with me. :)

hazel

Face to Fate

2007-10-10T21:38:00.000+08:00

just finished watching a show, Face to Fate. i totally love the couple, liu fenyu (Derek Kwok) and shen jianghong (Nancy Wu). they are so cool! it started in episode 16, then 17, 21,25-27, 34-36. there is one major scene btw 17 -21 but i dunno which episode is it in.

its a good show and i loved the chemistry between the. it was good. lai yao-er (Raymond Lam) was also really brilliant and his relationship with yen yelai (Selena Li) has a different texture, different depth. i liked how this is a long courtship compared to liu fenyu and shen jianghong's passionate and instantaneous one. but the producers still managed to bring out how they fell in love well, so it was really good to watch.

li buyi (Frankie Lam) and ye mengse's (Tavia Yeung) relationship was rather nonexistent and it was weird when buyi confessed, cos there didn't seem to be much leading up to it. but it was a rather simple relationship, not so complicated. this is a really good show with simple plot. really liked it lots :D

west: you can sky dive without a parachute!
claire: you could sky dive without a plane. *chuckles*

COOL! totally love HEROES.

hazel.

j1 life

2007-10-06T02:08:00.000+08:00

had open house today and it was totally cool. i love my CCA's theme. college PUBS. haha. the WRITE mix. ain't that cool? we were giving out free drinks and people asked us what was the link. HAHA. the inter house mass dance competition was not bad, and i really loved callisto one, so cute! and its easy cos only have to follow the lyrics. liked miranda's one, but just a little too repetitive. atlas and phobos having the same 2 songs was weird. trition's one was difficult and well, they, of course, got the champion and won the overall championship. when has triton not done so? i dunno. anyway callisto got THIRD!! yay! weird that in orientation 2 '07, atlas was catching up but they got last for overall, haix.

thinking bout in orientation 2 we were singing school song as a whole j1 and today we sang yet again. j1 life is ending soon and j2 is beginning. haix, gonna miss being able to slack ard and not having to worry about a's. i am never going to get this experience again. NEVER. j1 life is different from j2 or sec sch. it's interesting, being known as hazel and the other stuff. i wished i had lived my j1 life a little fuller, maybe gone out with the class more. But i will treasure the rest of the j1 time left, then shall chiong with them in j2. jc is intense, but rewarding. it is definitely a unique experience and uni will be very different. ah well. i am SO gonna miss j1 life.

melancholic
hazel

musings.

2007-09-29T04:32:00.000+08:00

haha, where are the stuff we need? we are so dead. but who cares. haix
shall call out to all my mj ppl for help. seriously. this is insane.

will plan it tmr at 10am.

j1 life

2007-09-27T20:19:00.000+08:00

it's one more day to the end of promos, had good day and bad day. after promos is a nightmarish time of trying to do Musings. haix. then it is followed by open then WR deadline. then have CL a'lvl too and then have PW oral presentation. then got j1 bash then HOPEFULLY go hong kong. then it culminates at church camp. woah, what a busy next 3 mths i am going to have. going insane

need to catch up on studies over holidays, reduce responsibility in school so that i can commit and cope. thank goodness my PW leadership is coming to an end. maybe shall nominate kath to be the leader. :D she did planned lots of stuff.

j1 is ending soon and its been a crazy intense year. jc is totally intense. not that i dun like intensity , but just, not all at one go. next year will know all the j1 stuff well, hopefully write better essays. i dun wan to retain but i'm not really scared, cos if its meant to be it will come. i liked most of my papers though, 'cept econs, but i wrote too lil' stuff. nvm.

one more day and can go insane over CP stuff. haix....

hazel

PW survey

2007-08-26T02:14:00.000+08:00

http://www.surveymonkey.com/s.aspx?sm=6P9H3FfOlEdfZzbxHk3PmA_3d_3d

please please please please help me to do this survey. please!!!!!!!!

thansk a million gazillion :D

haha,
hazel

missing girton

2007-08-20T01:35:00.000+08:00

MY room

MY shopping street

missing that farway place, having horrendous jet lag. gah. missing MY shopping street, missing MY room. i miss girton, cambridge so much, so much. it hurts.

http://www.truefriendtest.com/friendtest/910346
did a test for ppl to do. just go ahead!

missing a place,

hazel

after cambridge

2007-08-16T06:07:00.000+08:00

i have been totally traumatised, by the change in culture, timing, weather and everything else. have stayed copped up in my room, in my house. can't stand the lack of cornflakes and orange juice for breakfast, that the sun rises after 5, sets before nine, no sale going on, no frisbeee, lack of the dry and cool weather and just everything else. need to go back to school today. sian....

on the last day of lessons, we had reassessment as well as a drama workshop. was really fun and cool. went to shop one last time, bought some clothes. many bought chocs but i din. haha, sorry my friends.

flight back was good, not stuffy at all. :D

like what nicholas said, " we have landed, but 10000km away from where we want to be." How true is that. it is gonna be at least a year plus before i can even think of going back. i miss that place so much. i wanna try to go back for london econs next year. gosh.

missing cambridge,
hazel

cambridge day 12

2007-08-12T06:58:00.000+08:00

went to leeds castle, it was really beautiful, great water. bought some stuff from there. lots of birds, haha, sylvianne was so scared. the castle was really cool. bought some food too, reminded by val. lol. haven bought stuff for dr s and ms goh. i die la. lol. will spend tmr buying souvenirs i guess. lol. then went to canterbury and shopped, din have time to go into espirit, sian, but bought more stuff from river island, gonna miss river island when i go back. sian. going to end soon, i will really miss this place, the weather food, ppl, place and just everything thing else. haha. tmr last lesson hehre le, haix, go back to face all the promos and stuff liddat. sian. need to catch up and all, sian.

hazel

cambridge day 11

2007-08-11T04:33:00.000+08:00

went to globe theatre, it was super duper cool. haha. really love being there and watching as a groundling. i want to go back in the future. we also went to tate modern, saw this cool collection of red paintings. it reminded me of the blue paintings that dr alfi spoke about. :D it was great, watching othello and watching it play out. bought some souvenirs, some quills, unfortunately not real ones, and a cool pair of pens. haha. it has been a great day and great trip. going back soon and i am really going to miss this place lots. girton, petrol kiosk, cambridge town... canterbury, bath and london. it's just the culture and everything thing else. our literature blog is teh&scones. go see it. haha.

till tmr at canterbury,
hazel

cambridge day 10

2007-08-10T06:47:00.001+08:00

haha, it's national day today! at least it is for ppl who are staying at cambridge. saw lots of ppl wearing white and red. haha. we went "sight seeing" today, and it was really good and fun. i also liked our guide, he was good. haha. we also watched the tempest today, really cool and good play that we'll be studying next year. looks like good fun. lost another 15 pounds, and i was asking God ' what are you trying to tell me? or say?' cos i really din know and i knew God had His reasons. still dunno it yet, but my dad's nice, he wasn't really angry at it. i need to get money tmr or else i have no money at the globe theatre. haha. looking forward to tomorrow.

tired out, and dreading sch
hazel

national day

2007-08-09T05:55:00.000+08:00

It's National day over at Singapore and its 10 pm, 8th Aug here. haha. You may wonder why i am typing in proper sentences. It is due to the fact that I am been thrice rebuked. But I'll probably change back tomorrow. Why? It is because this is a place where my thoughts run free, and my thoughts like to run in small letters.

Today was good, and i really enjoyed the lessons even more. I am worried about my cash flow, a serious problem in this trip. My dad is in China now, and i just remembered it today. Today just shopped and studied, not much went on. There was a talk on journalism though, it was rather cool. Tomorrow we're going to watch The Tempest :DD I look forward to that. My history essay is still not coming together. I will write it by tonight. I miss everyone back home.

missing everyone,
hazel

cambridge day 8

2007-08-08T14:48:00.000+08:00

today had a good talk about iago. haha, took time to go thru his motives. then we ate in campus, cup noodles was horrible. bleh bleh bleh. went to town and began our one hr walk to grandchester. haha, all of us walked in front except mr low. lol. haha. went there to eat scones and have tea. yay!!! was quite alright, then we played games w/ mr low like bang bang, what's next?, black magic and other stupid stuff. haha. went back and listened to a talk on evolution. studied history before being dragged away to karaoke night. haha, it was really fun. we sang till 12. lol. today gonna be another fun day. i need to complete hist essay. :(

hazel

cambridge day 7

2007-08-07T06:56:00.000+08:00

today started on othello, was good fun, had lots of interesting plots. i like pride and prejudice, the tragedy. haha. was cool to write our own stories. went shopping, bought slippers and also some other stuff. haha, then had this talk about cambridge poets, mr low seems to really enjoy it. did laundry again, haha, we are becoming pros at this. haha, went for a talk anout shakespeare and his relevance, watch some gore and horror, totally scared some ppl off. oh ya, the one who teached us othello is a dr s look alike, haha, maybe she also likes gothic, cos she sorta laughs at the horror scenes we were watching. she was the one giving the talk. yup. then watched shakespeare in love. yaya. i liked it lots. tmr there's a walk to son place, grandchester or smth. its an hr walk, but i think i'll like it. haha, yay! too much stuff to do, haix, dying here. BLEH...

annual, and hwk.
dead.

hazel

CAMBRIDGE DAY 5 & 6

2007-08-06T06:31:00.000+08:00

DAY 5

had lesson on critical heritage of jane austen and also about novels to film in the afternoon. was quite fun, last lesson with antonia, she's nice :D saw rabbits outside the window so zoomed in and took some photos. haha, they're really scared of people, so they run away before we can even get near them. went to river island and got some nice stuff (2 pants), then also went to a cheap second hanp shop and got even more nice stuff (2 jackets, 2 books). haha yay!!! really worried bout spending money, cos lost the 50 pounds. bleh. had bbq dinner again then i did laundry with the guys. haha. yay! so mostly clean clothes again. :D then slp cos nxt day got excursion.

DAY 6

was late for breakfast, so only ate cereal. yay, there was frosties today :DDDDDD haha. then took bus to Bath to see the romans bath. we spent more time on coach than at the places. walked thru it quickly ( i will go back there another time) and we went shopping. i got a nice bag, though it wasn't what i wanted, and got some stuff from river island again. haha. we ate BK, which wasn't worth it. bleh. went to stonehenge, it was really nice. ( i took that photo) bought some stuff and we left. another 3 hrs bus ride. we then dropped off at town, ate at this pub like place. the svc was slow and bad, but the food was really good and it was quite cheap too, so it was alright. yup, that was all we did today. haha, tmr start on othello, we shld be more pro. haha

till tmr: D

hazel

CAMBRIDGE DAY 4

2007-08-04T14:36:00.000+08:00

we did laundry today, me , syl, d, & kat. haha, at first there were ppl who din take their clothes out, but when we returned a second time, they took it out le yay! we also oven cooked our own food, there was lots of smoke but ultimately it was eatable haha, and i really liked kath's lasange. yum! had rich dinner rich breakfast too. haha. there was a lesson on creative writing, which was really fun, we had to debate on how austen is NOT feminist, which was not easy, bleh.. haha.

at night went to watch macbeth. i thought it was okay, but mr low thought that they missed lots of good parts. they also took out a quote i liked. gah! haha, it got really cold at night,and i was totally freezing. here comes the part that made me unhappy. I LOST 50 POUNDS = 150 singdollars....... sian sian sian sian sian. why am i so careless. but i really couldn't find it so i just prayed lor. haix.

ah well, i hope all that is well ends well

going out on sunday, YAY!!

hazel

CAMBRIDGE DAY 3

2007-08-03T02:26:00.000+08:00

more abt day 1. when i entered the airport, i realised that i was one of the few who had small bags, everyone else had big luggages, and they all asked me how i fit my stuff into my small luggage. mine weighed about 13kg, while everyone else was 20+kg. the plane was just very stuffy, sat behind ppl who leaned back as much as they could. bleh.....

day 3. has a rich breakfast today, totally rich in calories. haix, and they are all playing volleyball or smth right now, and obviously i dun really like to excercise, so i think i'm gonna get so fat. gah... today talked about literature of the time, as well as the picturesque of the place. haha, some was fun, some boring. gah, not gonna be going out for the next few days, this is so sad. we went to town and shopped ard, lots of stuff were expensive. tried to buy some stuff but was forbidden by kathleen, deirdre and sylvianne. haha, they say i spendthrift. had a rich dinner too. it's just too much. i can't wait to watch macbeth, though its tragedy, no my kinda thing, but think that it'll be good. i wanna try to watch all of the plays in the other colleges as well. twelfth night, midsummer's night dream as well as the tempest. tempest is sorta compulsary, cos doing it next year, but the other two are really nice. hope to get to see the plays. oh ya, we had a photoshoot today.

gonna start doing work now, haha i'm so dead.

till tmr,
hazel

CAMBRIDGE DAY 2

2007-08-02T04:32:00.001+08:00

day one was just a 13 hr flight and a 2hr plus bus ride. really insane, wasted our time and the time was really warped.

day 2, we had good breakfast (YAY! there was cornflakes) and then we had lit lesson. it was P7P first, and most ppl hadn't completed reading it. it is so insane, cos like we thought it was next wk and they just switched the itinery around. haha. then we went to cambrigde town, lots and lots of stuff there. gonna go back a few times, look at colleges as well as shop ard. had bbq dinner. yayness. haha

weather is aircon temp, gets colder at night. sun rises at 5am and sets at 9pm. this is insane, and i like the petrol kiosk. haha its BP, where it disappeared frm s'pore. still have a lil jet lag. internet access still not up so now using the computer room's com. its must faster than mj. haha. there are lots of hallways here, very long walks. it's really cool :D

shall update soon again :D

hazel

MY BDAY

2007-07-09T23:53:00.000+08:00

haha. it's just after my spiritual BDAY and the beginning of my b'day. yay!!!

2 yrs in Christ, ups and downs, i have gone thru it all with Him. a roller coaster ride, or just a simple trip, perhaps a race or a marathon, it's one journey that i have been on for the past 2 yrs. camps with spiritual highs, moments of spiritual dryness, He never fails to be faithful, loving and totally great in my life. Still growing, still need lots of work, need Him to rule and reign in every area, want Him to be the greatest love of my life.

another yr, another new journey, i look forward to the next yr, trials and tribulations, i will be with Him.

hazel : D

work?

2007-07-06T23:00:00.000+08:00

not handed in, not complete, not entered. i am not the admin type of person, perhaps it was a mistake to take up that job. not the type to chase ppl for valuable things. articles, write ups, they cost only time, but the others, i can't bring myself to demand it. i know its impt, but i dun have the burden for it. sometimes, i'm just not that type of person, just don't push me.

the best way to get me to work efficiently is to give me time, like Ben Wai and Ms Goh : D i get work done and they get what they need. its just like this with me.

can't stand it, succeeding and failing and succeeding. its a up and down thing. no argument to say that i CAN'T do anything bout it, but maybe its cos i dun wan to. so i pray that God may give me a change of heart. sometimes, i dun wanna change, but i know it has to be done. may God convict me of what needs to be done.

so far KI got S (19.5/45) and chinese got B (69.0...) my 2 best results. maybe expecting that econs would be better, but lit, maths and hist sure DIE. haix, sometimes i get tired just thinking bout it.

i just wanna live life for God, surrounded by His presence. just to do all i can for Him, cos i know that it is definitely worth it. too many restrictions, challenges, i am feeling too tired. need to be refreshed. need to gain that conviction and that rush. sometimes i think that i am really insufficient as a member in a team, maybe its just that i don't like the way i am led. but no use whining bout it, cos if i think its not the best way that can bring the security of God to people, i have to be the one changing it.

i'm not saying that leading for a purpose is not a good way, but i think leading for the people is the best way. you need to do more than just inspire a vision and lead by example. you need to encourage the heart, and make sure that the person really feels it. we may know it, but we may not KNOW it. so, ya, guess i just wan some assurance? i dunno. haha.

maybe my calling is someplace else, i dunno, maybe i'm not motivated to do this. so just, ya, i don't work well under pressure if i feel that my leader going to disapprove of what i do. its just they way i am. and if i can't meet your standard, i sorta just give up. i can't do anything under pressure that i feel will lead to me getting rebuked. my working style, that's why i can't work under a boss.

convicted over and over again, of who God is and who He is in my life. He keeps me standing strong, even when i feel like falling. thanks a million, God! :DDDDDDD

hazel

two weeks

2007-07-02T19:01:00.000+08:00

its been 2 weeks, is anyone asking me, HOW"S THE TWO WEEKS CHALLENGE?

to tell you the truth, i think i failed. honestly. i think i failed totally. but who knows, maybe God has a different plan for me. ah, well.

doing PW now, yay! i think that we are on time for PW stuff, considering how lil' we did during the hols.

new vision new passions, too much stuff that is surrounding me. MCGs, I.F, copywritings, RC fund, MJ annual, .... AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay, i promise to PRAY, i MUST. isn't that what God said? : D

have to give up some, take up some. c'mon, i need to do more than just what i am doing now. KINGDOM-MINDED.

giveitupgiveitupgiveitupgiveitupgiveitup
giveitupgiveitupgiveitupgiveitupgiveitupgiveitup
giveitupgiveitupgiveitupgiveitup!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yup. i WILL.

exams are over. Gonna pass econs, chinese. failing hist, KI, literature and maths. Okay, so i may get some subpass, but i doubt so. ah well... results are next week.

dennis loh has a new haircut, and i think that its a great transformation. looks much better. haha. just had to comment on it : D

hoping, praying for a better 2nd semester,
hazel

MJ 15!!

bleh

2007-06-18T02:17:00.000+08:00

intellectual 'battle' at two in the morning.

save me :(

passion of christ

2007-06-15T21:20:00.000+08:00

the cross brings new meaning. "i am an innocent man, forced to carry the cross of a condemned man." indeed.

may You rule and reign,
hazel

first frontier

2007-06-15T14:37:00.000+08:00

next time ppl ask, what do u read on the web, i'll have to say, I dunno. cos i really wanna give it up. never regret raising my hand when pastor jeff said, "the next 2 wks God will test u." "Are you sure?"' yes, yes i am sure. i wanna give it up. maybe my ideas won't change for now, but at least i stop the input first. the beginnings of breakthrough. :D

this camp has been amazing, especially altar calls and worship. though it wasn't full of impacts, but God moved me in very simple ways. first frontier, is going where no man has gone. indeed. i have received a new conviction from God, and directions on finding my vision. a lighthouse, an ocean, a small boat. it has been great. new experiences, spiritually or otherwise, it has been great. awaiting more touches from heaven :D

first frontier, yes i will be.

convicted,
hazel

objectives

2007-06-10T01:57:00.000+08:00

Don't get me wrong! I love your laptop! *a smiley face had been scrawled onto
the page*

SO CUTE!!

camp is starting on monday, at Singapore Sports Sch. gonna be crazy, gonna be insane, and most of all, life transforming. to place down old burdens, turn my back against past sins. it has been years, too long. i wish i never knew, then i would not have. everything happens for a reason.

objectives for FIRST FRONTIER:
1. vision for cg and my life
2. secret : D
3. new conviction from God
4. still abt the secret
5. secret
6. secret
:
:

i wanna get rid of it. bleh. i'm so sick of it le. bleh bleh bleh.

tmr will be my last day. no more, no less. to finally be able to claim absolute victory, that is my heart's cry.

victorious,
hazel

abt writing

2007-05-27T22:57:00.000+08:00

yay, now in College Publications, its a busy busy CCA. the next newsletter, plus Soiree and also the annual. Its fun, writing and planning, sorta like marcom :D

hmm,east gonna need a new RC le, and also need a writer, cos JC students going to be their own district, we need people!!!!! encourage anyone who is interested to join :D all the things going to fall down le. haha. marcom always very ad-hoc. but honestly, its fun :D

school and CCA, is taking up lots of my sch holidays, and i don't mean for camps or remedials. they just eat up my days unknowingly. another one and half years more. sometimes, i just get sick of this type of lifestyle, but other times, i really love the intensity of it.

camp is coming, and i need to get my life in order. if not, sure can't hear frm God. must be prepared :D and i will be. school will not overwhelm me. no way. i wan to live life for God. :D

seeking to overcomw with You,
hazel :D

so cool :D

2007-05-25T13:56:00.000+08:00

“If you happen to get up to my room before me, the password to my door . . . is your name.”

crazy

2007-05-14T00:11:00.000+08:00

after continuous weeks of work, finally have time to blog.

Midsummer's Night Dream at Fort Canning Park was really great. the use of stage, the adaptations, witty but also true to the spirit of the play. great.

planning to stop taking languages soon. its eating up too much of my time. haix.

need to take upcoming and present responsibilitites seriously, if i wanna lead, i must lead well.

term 2 ending soon, term 3 will have mid yrs, PW, cambridge and Independent Study (IS) falling on me. gonna die. lol.

JC life is totally frantic, yet i am glad that my class is a good one :D yay!

still seeking to depend on God in ALL things :D
hazel.

l'ecole

2007-04-21T00:15:00.000+08:00

been a while since i broke away from the extreme pain (schwork) and extreme pleasure (slacking) cycle. feels like i have been on autopilot of some degree of everyday. every day, i am plagued by insufficient sleep and a lack of time to complete assg. i am enjoying myself, once i stop obsessing over my subjects. i have to take a step back and realise the fun i am having.

responsibilities piling up. it is the one area of my life that i am concerned with the most.
CG vicechair, most prob EXCO in CP, CLa, RC fund collector, archiving in charge. in addition, i have 3 tuitions, a fourth one coming up, 2 language courses, which i would like to continue to the end.

my body is tired, and i feel sleepy most of the time. it isn't good for my body. haix.

enjoying KI alot, although i spend lots of time antagonising how to answer their questions and all the info that has to be read up. ECONS is great, i love to see how subtle many theories can work in our lives. LIT is super cool, and i love all the satirical, sarcastic speech. it's so fun to be caught up in language and yay! i got into the cambridge program of literature. :D MATHS is getting more interesting as it leaves graphs, which makes me very happy. PW, my draft 1 has finally passed. yay!!

getting new phone soon. din expect to do so but really wanna thank God for it. :D

wanna draw closer, wanna close the gap. wanna be right beside You. wanna be with You.
hazel.

why.

2007-04-08T01:44:00.000+08:00

Why? byNicole Nordeman. wow. i couldn't stop crying. beautiful lyrics, beautiful pics. beautiful love. this season of easter is so empowering.

it;s possible. just do it.

hazel

DN

2007-04-06T22:10:00.000+08:00

just completed watching both Death Note movies. i call the ending of the second movie, One Twist TooMany. it just killed the entire build up of both movies. it failed its final purpose. when we are brought to a certain line of thought. complete it, don't twist it and destroy all the hard work in the front. conclude it, don't turn against it. planning to buy manga and anime. heard that the ending is concluded, not destroyed.

commit to marcom, studies, civis grp, college pubs. now CG? if He has chosen, i will choose Him. He does know me. :D

"will u stand by my side and witness my binding to another?
it would be an honor and a privilege to stand by you and yours."
- pledges,by Amireal

i like the rhythm of the words. cool:D

astronomy, UN-ASEAN. research, urgh.

hazel